I'm a loser, baby.

car is totaled.
still no job.

just want to get drunk and not deal.
life was not meant for me....

update

...I think I've made myself think that I've run out of *interesting* things to say in the past couple of days. I just have been feeling so strained, and un-relaxed...I always feel nervous or like I'm doing something wrong....I do it to myself, mostly. Maybe if I hadn't been abused by the majority of the close friends I had when I was a kid, I wouldn't be so damn insecure these days...who knows......maybe I just need to blame others for my insecurity because I'm too insecure to blame myself. Ha, Brains.

On the upside, my classes this semester are EPIC in their awesomeness. I foresee myself learning a lot about...myself.

Also, the always charming and wonderful boyfriend of mine showed me a program much like illustrator only it's free. I know this isn't a new thing in the world, but it's damn new to me. It's funny how quickly I caught on to it though...like, almost immediately.

I guess here are some things I've been experimenting with..






they got pretty pixelated in the transition...so...ignore that..but, yeah...just some stuff. I never thought I'd have so much fun moving around little grey boxes...

cutting out the fat

i think it's about time to sort through the storage and let some things go
maybe i'll give them away so that they can go and find a new adventure.
sad as it may be, it's kind of that time.
it's been that time for a while, now.

of course you know by now that i like to speak metaphorically.